I will take longer than others August 22, 2007

Tonight is another meeting. I am in the state of mind right now that I am just pissed at myself.

 I made a goal for myself back in May that I would be at my 10% loss by August 31 – the date of a friend’s wedding. That is 10 days away and I’m pretty sure I’m 5 lbs shy of it.

This week was another bad week where I went over my weekly points and did not hold myself to the willpower I had in the beginning. I kept telling myself that I was doing so well, so I could enjoy myself a little.

Well, I lost 17.4 lbs in like, the first 6 or 7 weeks, then I just came to a stand still. Not like hitting a plateau where I am doing everything right but not losing weight. I hit a plateau because I haven’t been doing everything right, and I still haven’t exercised. And now, I’m just getting frustrated with myself about the choices I’ve made.

Tonight, I will most likely have stayed the same. At least, I hope I didn’t gain.

And I know that whole lecture last week about how the people that are the “go getters” that do everything so strict and gung ho every second from the beginning will be more successful quicker than some others who stray from the path on occasion. But so long as you end up back on the path and keep chugging away, you will meet your goal too!

It just may not be as quickly as some others.

I am getting tired of my side-track-i-ness and need to stop making excuses. I want to lost another 30 lbs and I need to stop futzing around.

I will go tonight and accept the consequences, but for the love of God, I need to get my ass in gear and start being more serious again.