Monday was one of those days that you wish you stayed in bed.
I was hit so hard by AF, I felt so terrible, sick, bloated, tired, achy, etc. that I actually left work over an hour early to go home and get in my sweats. I’ve never done that. Ever.
But I did go to my weigh in.
I know I had a bad week but FOR CHRIST’S SAKE I gained 3 lbs. ugh. I know it’s the AF weight. But still.
The problem with where I am right now is this….this is the point where I feel a depression coming on. I haven’t lost much because I haven’t been a WW super star. I’m frustrated with work and I am in a big rut money-wise. Plus, I’m getting depressed that we are not selling our condo. This all is making me feel like a big fat loser and I want nothing else but to curl up, sit on the couch and get fatter.
Last night, after the WW meeting, I ate 2 helpings of meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Plus, I had a big piece of crumb cake for dinner. Fuck WW.
I know. I know. Not the right attitude.
This morning. I wrote all of that crap down. Maybe 22 points for dinner alone?!!? I don’t know.
I’ve been up at the crack of dawn and in bed late so I haven’t got up to hit the treadmill since Friday. Work and AF are making me tired – even feeling flu-like. But it hasn’t curbed my eating.
I’m not giving up hope. Don’t worry. I have 25 days left until Memorial Day weekend and I can do this! (why does my math not seem to be adding up?!?!)
And then I have 28 more days after that before the big golf tournament that we see all the lesbians at! I need to be skinnier by then, definitely!
Hang in there and try to get your mind in the right place. Food won’t fix how you feel. Food is food, not love. Don’t forget how much love you have and if WW isn’t right for you, then try something else. I think that they disregard the effect of sugar on the body. Try eating less sugar and see how less hungry you feel. And oh yeah, here’s the best diet tip ever. Eat only when you are hungry. Sounds simple, but you have to ask yourself if you are hungry before you eat and stop when you are full. Remember that food is food and love is love. Food will not make work easier or ease your stress. Good luck.