Some of you may be wondering where I have been and if I have totally fallen off the wagon. If anyone is still reading this.

I don’t know what the hell day it is, but I have actually done pretty well recently. At WW on Monday, I was down 3 lbs for the week. It could have probably been 6 lbs if it wasn’t for my party-filled weekend.

I think I’m moving away from the Spring Challenge and into the Summer Challenge.

A few of my work buddies and I decided to do the Cardiac (fad) diet for a week for shits and giggles. A male co-worker lost 33 lbs in about 8 weeks doing it. It’s 3 days out of 7, so I figure, what the hell. I want results, I’ll take the sacrifices right now.

Yesterday was Day 1 of that diet. I’m doing Wed, Thurs, Fri this week and if it works, we’ll do it again next week.

This discussion at work has sparked me to organize a “Bigg*st Loser” at our office. Monday is Day 1. Everyone gives their “starting weight” on Monday and every Monday they report their weight gained or lost. There’s probably going to be 14 people giving $10 each for the pot. We’ll go for 8 weeks and July 7th will be the unveiling. The biggest Los*r gets 75% of the pot and the runner up gets 25%. It’s amazing how many people here are excited about it! Add some financial incentives and people are raring to go!

So, I am starting the countdown over again with Monday being Day 1 all over again for an 8 week period. I am still doing the Cardiac thing today and tomorrow and still plan on doing a WW-style food plan the rest of the time and incorporating exercise on the non-Cardiac diet days. We’ll see how this all goes.

As for the Spring Challenge actually go?

I think I was 187.2 when I started.
This morning, I was 178.

Down 9.2 for the past 4 weeks. It’s not great, but it’s a loss.
I’m down 27.4 from last May.

23 lbs to go. Totally doable.

That’s how much time I have between now and Memorial Day weekend.
That’s how much time I have to get off my excuse wagon and lose 20 lbs.

Yes, I said 20 lbs. In 8 weeks.

The runnersworld.com program that I printed out is for 5 days a week/8 weeks. I bought myself one of these and I am setting my alarm for 5 am tomorrow morning (if I don’t get my butt on the treadmill tonight).

I know it’s already Wed. and I’m not too on track, but I’m not going to wait for next Monday to start.

I haven’t been to a Weight Watchers meeting in 3 months and I am almost embarrassed to show up now, but maybe next Monday. I’ll get back on the meeting wagon too.

I need my girls more than ever now. I know I’ve been really quiet and everyone who I started this with has done so well.

I’m done with the “here we go again” talking without acting.

Seriously, it’s time to take charge of me.

I only have 8 weeks. Dammit.

Here’s a thought. If there is anyone out there who actually reads this…and you want to lose weight too…do you want to do a little competitive thing?? A little challenge?

Let me know. Every day from now until Memorial Day, I will post. I promise. Good or bad.

This Monday started Week One.

Fresh start.

Starting anew.

20 lbs down. 35 lbs to go.

One pound at a time!

Here we go again.  

I don’t know how, but I did it. And it only took me 14 weeks of WW (16 weeks total, I think).

My loss for the week was 3.6 lbs! Holy crap!

In all fairness, at last week’s weigh in it was my most bloated, PMS-ey day of the month, which is probably 3 lbs right there.

So, now I need to think of my goal weight. I’m 5′7″ and the booklet shows my ideal weight as between 128-160. Well, I have not been 128 since freshman year of college. I was probably 137 pre-law school, but I am now 185 lbs and I can’t even imagine being under 150 at this point.

I think I’m going to shoot for 155. It’s 30 more lbs. Totally managable, right?

It just seems like such a big amount to lose.

For now, I’m going to enjoy the 20 lbs down and not think about how much is left on my journey!

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BTW – ANOTHER GREAT FIND!

I am in LOVE with the Fiber One bars. The oat and chocolate ones are my new little treat! Yummy!

Tonight is another meeting. I am in the state of mind right now that I am just pissed at myself.

 I made a goal for myself back in May that I would be at my 10% loss by August 31 – the date of a friend’s wedding. That is 10 days away and I’m pretty sure I’m 5 lbs shy of it.

This week was another bad week where I went over my weekly points and did not hold myself to the willpower I had in the beginning. I kept telling myself that I was doing so well, so I could enjoy myself a little.

Well, I lost 17.4 lbs in like, the first 6 or 7 weeks, then I just came to a stand still. Not like hitting a plateau where I am doing everything right but not losing weight. I hit a plateau because I haven’t been doing everything right, and I still haven’t exercised. And now, I’m just getting frustrated with myself about the choices I’ve made.

Tonight, I will most likely have stayed the same. At least, I hope I didn’t gain.

And I know that whole lecture last week about how the people that are the “go getters” that do everything so strict and gung ho every second from the beginning will be more successful quicker than some others who stray from the path on occasion. But so long as you end up back on the path and keep chugging away, you will meet your goal too!

It just may not be as quickly as some others.

I am getting tired of my side-track-i-ness and need to stop making excuses. I want to lost another 30 lbs and I need to stop futzing around.

I will go tonight and accept the consequences, but for the love of God, I need to get my ass in gear and start being more serious again.

As I stated before, I took a WW vacation during my birthday and Provincetown trip.

Now, it’s back to my regularly scheduled meetings as of tomorrow night. I know I have lost nothing.

And, to top it all off – tomorrow will be another “most bloated day of the month.” The only good news on this is that next Wed, if I’m a good WW girl, I should definitely have a decent change.

I need to be a really diligent, back on the wagon girl for at least another 20 lbs.

I noticed that some of the girls over at From Thick to Thin have come up with treats for themselves when they achieve their weight loss goals.

I was thinking about what my personal trophy would be, other than feeling and looking awesome! LOL!

My mother promised to take me clothes shopping, so that’s my special treat from her. I want to do something for myself.

I’m thinking this over and will need to do something that I’ve always wanted.

Of course, the first thing that comes to mind is getting a motorcycle. I think that’s a great trophy for myself.

My wife has been against this forever, so she retains veto power over my decision to get one, but I might start working on her a little.

Or find something else that’s a perfect trophy.

But I really want a motorcycle.