I am writing this post for Holly. Not me, but the other Holly. The one who is also on this weight loss journey through blogland.

It has been 5 months since my last post and I have probably not lost a single pound since then. The good news is, that I really haven’t gained much. I’m holding steady at “borderline obese” according to my Wii Fit.

I am not giving up though, I am actually back on the wagon as of this week. We are doing the weight loss challenge again at work and I want to win it! (My dinner last night will probably sink me for the entire week though! sigh)

Along with this, we have starting TTCing again. Today, actually. And while I was in the waiting room, I was reading “what to expect” – which I own but never read last time around. It said something about how it was ideal to start off pregnancy in great shape, but it’s never too late to start.

So, I have all of the tools. I have my WW knowledge, I have my new Wii Fit, complete with the Jillian.Michaels game (which I love) and I have a hand-me-down elliptical in my basement.

I can do this. It’s time.

Maybe I can lose a little weight before I start gaining it again! LOL!

well, it was a crappy week. if you’ve been reading my other blog, you know my head’s been playing tricks on my body.

I was a terrible eater this past week, but I am chalking it up to needing comfort and lacking self control. In the past week, however, I did do 2 sessions (should have been three) of the Week One – Couch to 5k podcast. Plus, I’m really motivated not to continue it.

I did gain weight this past week, but I’m calling it a wash. Today is the most bloated day of my month and I’m not counting that as gained weight this morning.

After cleaning the garage yesterday, I found some of my lost motivation. I found it in a box of pictures. They were from about 8-9 years ago when I was cute and skinny. Back when I met my wife and she probably thought she was getting a hottie! Those pics renewed my drive to lose this damn weight.

The newest hurdle I’m facing is this medication I’ve started that has a side effect of weight gain. I’m hoping I can stay on course with the eating and the running and overcome that.

How’s everyone else doing?!?!

Sorry about the hiatus. I’ve been a terrible weight loser lately.

Our bigg.est los.er thing at work ends today and I think I’ve gained weight in the past 8 weeks. And now, I’m only 30 days away from my college reunion (and 20 lbs to lose before my goal).

I have some major readjustments to make, but I think I have done my damage and am ready to get back on track.

ugh.

Onward and upward. I’m back to doing a flex plan for this week. I did do very well on Core – when I actually followed it. But this would be too tough of a Core week.

We have house guests for a few more weeks and it’s been hard to entertain and be 100% good. I’m hoping by tracking again, I’ll force myself to behave.

How’s everyone doing out there?

I need to get back to posting daily. It keeps me on track better.

Thanks to Jocelyn, I’ve decided to try the Core plan for a week or two. I did pretty well yesterday despite not having much on hand in the fridge.

I like being able to not worry about how much I’m eating and I have the 35 extra points for my little “necessities”. But I am going to try to curb those little munchies.

Last night, Lois ran to the store and picked me up some turkey, cereal, fruit, etc. The cereal that she got me is a Stop.and.Shop brand fat-free raisin bran and it’s not bad at all.

Today, my pickings include a banana, necterine, grapefruit, grilled zucchini from last night, deli turkey, sugar-free jello, fat-free cottage cheese, Diet Dr. Pepper, Lipton white tea and some other assorted things. I think I’m in good shape.

As for the weigh in, I actually didn’t do too terrible. I gained .4 this week. Based on the fact that all of my weight loss last week was fluid, I am surprised I didn’t gain it all back.

I am currently 174.4 lbs.

I need to restart my plan to do the “couch to 5k” running program. Based on our ridiculous bedtimes, 5:00 am wake ups is not possible for me right now. I need to do it at night and I’m going to start tonight. Come hell or high water.

How’s everyone else doing??!?!?

First of all – AWESOME JOB JOCELYN!

I am considering doing core, maybe just for a few weeks. I haven’t been to the grocery store and we have a lot going on this week, but maybe next week I’ll give it a try. I always stuck to flex because I’m someone that likes to eat EVERYTHING, and flex gives me the opportunity to do that. However, everyone I know who’s done core has lost weight. And it looks totally doable to me!

As for me…

The good news is that I am down 4.4 lbs for the week!

Wahoo!

The bad news is that I have had an awful stomach bug for 4 days, and that’s really what had me lose the weight.

Since I’m not going to have that bug every week, I definitely need to stay on track. However, I am motivated to not gain that weight back. After 4 days like that, I deserve the weight loss.

How’s everyone else doing?!!?

Where have I been?

Staying fat and happy miserable. I’m done feeling sorry for myself. I’m back on the wagon.

We did our 8 week Big.gest Lo.ser competition at work. I didn’t win. Not by a long shot. Some people here are doing that 3-day per week cardio diet. I tried it, lost 3 lbs in 3 days and gained 6 lbs on the 4th day.  We started a second season of the BL and I’ve gained weight in the past 3 weeks. WTF?

I’m back to W.eight W.atchers in full force. I got a new 3-month tracker and as of yesterday, I’m writing everything down.

Here’s the scoop, as of this morning, I’m at 175.7 lbs. My (realistic) goal is 155. I would love to be 150. I’m 5′7″ and I seriously doubt I will be my pre-law-school 137 ever again.

I want to lose this weight before two events

1. the beginning of our TTC journey

2. my 10 yr college reunion

Both of these are in October or so. The reunion will likely come first – so I can drink at it  and it’s 73 days from today. 

10 weeks. I am on my very own 10 week challenge.

And we’re off….

Is anyone still reading this? I hope you haven’t totally given up on me yet!

BTW – Great find: Keebler 100 Calorie Fudge Shoppe Grasshopper cookies (2 points) and they taste like thin mint gir.l sc.out cookies!

Sorry sorry sorry for not posting.

My busy life seems to be having quite an impact on my blogging and facebook lives!

We made it through Week 1 of the B.iggest L.oser at work. I came in second being down 2.4%.

I wasn’t as good as I could have been last week but I lost 4.4 lbs. I went from 183.2 to 178.8.

My weight loss is:

Overall Down 26.8 lbs

Biggest Loser Week 1 down 4.4 lbs

I must admit that I still am not working out and fully admit that once I start, the pounds will fly off even quicker. I keep thinking I can get up at the crack of dawn, but I’ve been too tired lately.

I’m going to start on the treadmill in the next day or so just so I don’t have to write one more post about how I’m not working out at all!

The food was okay this week. I wasn’t the best, actually last night was my worst night in a long time including a hot dog, some BBW chicken, a baked potato and macaroni salad. I’m PMSing, so I didn’t care. I just figured I’ll cross off about 15 or 20 of my extra weekly points for my transgression yesterday.

I’ve also fallen back in love with T.rader J.oes. I got some of those fruit floes fat free ice pops and some frozen ahi tuna steaks. I made the tuna on the grill Friday night and it was a small success. It was pretty good, but if I had defrosted it a day sooner and marinated it longer, it would have been even better.

My mother is spending an occasional night at our house for dinner since she is laid up on crutches and is renting a room with no kitchen. I want to try a salmon recipe that my brother talked about – something about tomatoes and other veggies, some parchment paper and an oven.

Is anyone else playing along out there?

BTW – inlocoparentis….I billed 172 hours last month and am on track for about 90 this month!!! Ouch.

Some of you may be wondering where I have been and if I have totally fallen off the wagon. If anyone is still reading this.

I don’t know what the hell day it is, but I have actually done pretty well recently. At WW on Monday, I was down 3 lbs for the week. It could have probably been 6 lbs if it wasn’t for my party-filled weekend.

I think I’m moving away from the Spring Challenge and into the Summer Challenge.

A few of my work buddies and I decided to do the Cardiac (fad) diet for a week for shits and giggles. A male co-worker lost 33 lbs in about 8 weeks doing it. It’s 3 days out of 7, so I figure, what the hell. I want results, I’ll take the sacrifices right now.

Yesterday was Day 1 of that diet. I’m doing Wed, Thurs, Fri this week and if it works, we’ll do it again next week.

This discussion at work has sparked me to organize a “Bigg*st Loser” at our office. Monday is Day 1. Everyone gives their “starting weight” on Monday and every Monday they report their weight gained or lost. There’s probably going to be 14 people giving $10 each for the pot. We’ll go for 8 weeks and July 7th will be the unveiling. The biggest Los*r gets 75% of the pot and the runner up gets 25%. It’s amazing how many people here are excited about it! Add some financial incentives and people are raring to go!

So, I am starting the countdown over again with Monday being Day 1 all over again for an 8 week period. I am still doing the Cardiac thing today and tomorrow and still plan on doing a WW-style food plan the rest of the time and incorporating exercise on the non-Cardiac diet days. We’ll see how this all goes.

As for the Spring Challenge actually go?

I think I was 187.2 when I started.
This morning, I was 178.

Down 9.2 for the past 4 weeks. It’s not great, but it’s a loss.
I’m down 27.4 from last May.

23 lbs to go. Totally doable.

Monday was one of those days that you wish you stayed in bed.

I was hit so hard by AF, I felt so terrible, sick, bloated, tired, achy, etc. that I actually left work over an hour early to go home and get in my sweats. I’ve never done that. Ever.

But I did go to my weigh in.

I know I had a bad week but FOR CHRIST’S SAKE I gained 3 lbs. ugh. I know it’s the AF weight. But still.

The problem with where I am right now is this….this is the point where I feel a depression coming on. I haven’t lost much because I haven’t been a WW super star. I’m frustrated with work and I am in a big rut money-wise. Plus, I’m getting depressed that we are not selling our condo. This all is making me feel like a big fat loser and I want nothing else but to curl up, sit on the couch and get fatter.

Last night, after the WW meeting, I ate 2 helpings of meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Plus, I had a big piece of crumb cake for dinner. Fuck WW.

I know. I know. Not the right attitude.

This morning. I wrote all of that crap down. Maybe 22 points for dinner alone?!!? I don’t know.

I’ve been up at the crack of dawn and in bed late so I haven’t got up to hit the treadmill since Friday. Work and AF are making me tired – even feeling flu-like. But it hasn’t curbed my eating.

I’m not giving up hope. Don’t worry. I have 25 days left until Memorial Day weekend and I can do this! (why does my math not seem to be adding up?!?!)

And then I have 28 more days after that before the big golf tournament that we see all the lesbians at! I need to be skinnier by then, definitely!

My hope was to be down 10 lbs by Day 26.

Cough. Cough.

It’s not happenin’.

Last night (the seminar) was okay. It involved a long, drawn out discussion. Attorneys like to hear themselves talk (I’m one of them!) and with 100 lawyers in a room discussing a hot topic, it went on forever. So, I ate bread and butter after I was done with my dinner. Bad, bad Holly.

But, alas….

I got back on the treadmill this morning. It was only 20 minutes of walking, but I got up at 6 am (after going to bed at 11:30 pm) and did it!

Tomorrow, I will try the running/walking part again. I was hoping to get ahead a little on the running program and jump to Week 3 but I think I’m really, really much more out of shape than I even could admit to myself.

Another thing.

Tracking works.

We all (everyone who’s done WW) know that when you are diligent about tracking, you lose weight. Well, I have not tracked this week. And AF is really rearing her ugly head and will for 4 more days. Ugh.

My Monday weigh-in will not be pretty but I’m still not giving up on losing weight this week. Dammit.