I need to get back to posting daily. It keeps me on track better.

Thanks to Jocelyn, I’ve decided to try the Core plan for a week or two. I did pretty well yesterday despite not having much on hand in the fridge.

I like being able to not worry about how much I’m eating and I have the 35 extra points for my little “necessities”. But I am going to try to curb those little munchies.

Last night, Lois ran to the store and picked me up some turkey, cereal, fruit, etc. The cereal that she got me is a Stop.and.Shop brand fat-free raisin bran and it’s not bad at all.

Today, my pickings include a banana, necterine, grapefruit, grilled zucchini from last night, deli turkey, sugar-free jello, fat-free cottage cheese, Diet Dr. Pepper, Lipton white tea and some other assorted things. I think I’m in good shape.

As for the weigh in, I actually didn’t do too terrible. I gained .4 this week. Based on the fact that all of my weight loss last week was fluid, I am surprised I didn’t gain it all back.

I am currently 174.4 lbs.

I need to restart my plan to do the “couch to 5k” running program. Based on our ridiculous bedtimes, 5:00 am wake ups is not possible for me right now. I need to do it at night and I’m going to start tonight. Come hell or high water.

How’s everyone else doing??!?!?

First of all - AWESOME JOB JOCELYN!

I am considering doing core, maybe just for a few weeks. I haven’t been to the grocery store and we have a lot going on this week, but maybe next week I’ll give it a try. I always stuck to flex because I’m someone that likes to eat EVERYTHING, and flex gives me the opportunity to do that. However, everyone I know who’s done core has lost weight. And it looks totally doable to me!

As for me…

The good news is that I am down 4.4 lbs for the week!

Wahoo!

The bad news is that I have had an awful stomach bug for 4 days, and that’s really what had me lose the weight.

Since I’m not going to have that bug every week, I definitely need to stay on track. However, I am motivated to not gain that weight back. After 4 days like that, I deserve the weight loss.

How’s everyone else doing?!!?

Where have I been?

Staying fat and happy miserable. I’m done feeling sorry for myself. I’m back on the wagon.

We did our 8 week Big.gest Lo.ser competition at work. I didn’t win. Not by a long shot. Some people here are doing that 3-day per week cardio diet. I tried it, lost 3 lbs in 3 days and gained 6 lbs on the 4th day.  We started a second season of the BL and I’ve gained weight in the past 3 weeks. WTF?

I’m back to W.eight W.atchers in full force. I got a new 3-month tracker and as of yesterday, I’m writing everything down.

Here’s the scoop, as of this morning, I’m at 175.7 lbs. My (realistic) goal is 155. I would love to be 150. I’m 5′7″ and I seriously doubt I will be my pre-law-school 137 ever again.

I want to lose this weight before two events

1. the beginning of our TTC journey

2. my 10 yr college reunion

Both of these are in October or so. The reunion will likely come first - so I can drink at it ;-) and it’s 73 days from today. 

10 weeks. I am on my very own 10 week challenge.

And we’re off….

Is anyone still reading this? I hope you haven’t totally given up on me yet!

BTW - Great find: Keebler 100 Calorie Fudge Shoppe Grasshopper cookies (2 points) and they taste like thin mint gir.l sc.out cookies!

Sorry sorry sorry for not posting.

My busy life seems to be having quite an impact on my blogging and facebook lives!

We made it through Week 1 of the B.iggest L.oser at work. I came in second being down 2.4%.

I wasn’t as good as I could have been last week but I lost 4.4 lbs. I went from 183.2 to 178.8.

My weight loss is:

Overall Down 26.8 lbs

Biggest Loser Week 1 down 4.4 lbs

I must admit that I still am not working out and fully admit that once I start, the pounds will fly off even quicker. I keep thinking I can get up at the crack of dawn, but I’ve been too tired lately.

I’m going to start on the treadmill in the next day or so just so I don’t have to write one more post about how I’m not working out at all!

The food was okay this week. I wasn’t the best, actually last night was my worst night in a long time including a hot dog, some BBW chicken, a baked potato and macaroni salad. I’m PMSing, so I didn’t care. I just figured I’ll cross off about 15 or 20 of my extra weekly points for my transgression yesterday.

I’ve also fallen back in love with T.rader J.oes. I got some of those fruit floes fat free ice pops and some frozen ahi tuna steaks. I made the tuna on the grill Friday night and it was a small success. It was pretty good, but if I had defrosted it a day sooner and marinated it longer, it would have been even better.

My mother is spending an occasional night at our house for dinner since she is laid up on crutches and is renting a room with no kitchen. I want to try a salmon recipe that my brother talked about – something about tomatoes and other veggies, some parchment paper and an oven.

Is anyone else playing along out there?

BTW – inlocoparentis….I billed 172 hours last month and am on track for about 90 this month!!! Ouch.

Some of you may be wondering where I have been and if I have totally fallen off the wagon. If anyone is still reading this.

I don’t know what the hell day it is, but I have actually done pretty well recently. At WW on Monday, I was down 3 lbs for the week. It could have probably been 6 lbs if it wasn’t for my party-filled weekend.

I think I’m moving away from the Spring Challenge and into the Summer Challenge.

A few of my work buddies and I decided to do the Cardiac (fad) diet for a week for shits and giggles. A male co-worker lost 33 lbs in about 8 weeks doing it. It’s 3 days out of 7, so I figure, what the hell. I want results, I’ll take the sacrifices right now.

Yesterday was Day 1 of that diet. I’m doing Wed, Thurs, Fri this week and if it works, we’ll do it again next week.

This discussion at work has sparked me to organize a “Bigg*st Loser” at our office. Monday is Day 1. Everyone gives their “starting weight” on Monday and every Monday they report their weight gained or lost. There’s probably going to be 14 people giving $10 each for the pot. We’ll go for 8 weeks and July 7th will be the unveiling. The biggest Los*r gets 75% of the pot and the runner up gets 25%. It’s amazing how many people here are excited about it! Add some financial incentives and people are raring to go!

So, I am starting the countdown over again with Monday being Day 1 all over again for an 8 week period. I am still doing the Cardiac thing today and tomorrow and still plan on doing a WW-style food plan the rest of the time and incorporating exercise on the non-Cardiac diet days. We’ll see how this all goes.

As for the Spring Challenge actually go?

I think I was 187.2 when I started.
This morning, I was 178.

Down 9.2 for the past 4 weeks. It’s not great, but it’s a loss.
I’m down 27.4 from last May.

23 lbs to go. Totally doable.

Monday was one of those days that you wish you stayed in bed.

I was hit so hard by AF, I felt so terrible, sick, bloated, tired, achy, etc. that I actually left work over an hour early to go home and get in my sweats. I’ve never done that. Ever.

But I did go to my weigh in.

I know I had a bad week but FOR CHRIST’S SAKE I gained 3 lbs. ugh. I know it’s the AF weight. But still.

The problem with where I am right now is this….this is the point where I feel a depression coming on. I haven’t lost much because I haven’t been a WW super star. I’m frustrated with work and I am in a big rut money-wise. Plus, I’m getting depressed that we are not selling our condo. This all is making me feel like a big fat loser and I want nothing else but to curl up, sit on the couch and get fatter.

Last night, after the WW meeting, I ate 2 helpings of meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Plus, I had a big piece of crumb cake for dinner. Fuck WW.

I know. I know. Not the right attitude.

This morning. I wrote all of that crap down. Maybe 22 points for dinner alone?!!? I don’t know.

I’ve been up at the crack of dawn and in bed late so I haven’t got up to hit the treadmill since Friday. Work and AF are making me tired – even feeling flu-like. But it hasn’t curbed my eating.

I’m not giving up hope. Don’t worry. I have 25 days left until Memorial Day weekend and I can do this! (why does my math not seem to be adding up?!?!)

And then I have 28 more days after that before the big golf tournament that we see all the lesbians at! I need to be skinnier by then, definitely!

My hope was to be down 10 lbs by Day 26.

Cough. Cough.

It’s not happenin’.

Last night (the seminar) was okay. It involved a long, drawn out discussion. Attorneys like to hear themselves talk (I’m one of them!) and with 100 lawyers in a room discussing a hot topic, it went on forever. So, I ate bread and butter after I was done with my dinner. Bad, bad Holly.

But, alas….

I got back on the treadmill this morning. It was only 20 minutes of walking, but I got up at 6 am (after going to bed at 11:30 pm) and did it!

Tomorrow, I will try the running/walking part again. I was hoping to get ahead a little on the running program and jump to Week 3 but I think I’m really, really much more out of shape than I even could admit to myself.

Another thing.

Tracking works.

We all (everyone who’s done WW) know that when you are diligent about tracking, you lose weight. Well, I have not tracked this week. And AF is really rearing her ugly head and will for 4 more days. Ugh.

My Monday weigh-in will not be pretty but I’m still not giving up on losing weight this week. Dammit.

What the hell day is it?

Okay, it’s annoying as hell to write about the day before, the day after it’s happened. Sigh.

I wanted to thank everyone again for their comments. It’s making me feel like I’m not alone. And that I do have to answer to someone other than myself! When you are only answering for yourself, it’s easy to give yourself a break or two or twenty.

I have a total diet meltdown yesterday. I was like one of those bears trolling a campground for an open trailer with food in it. It was administrative pro’s day and there was a lot of bad food hanging around.

By 1 pm, my uncontrollable self had ingested one whole wheat bagel with jelly, a blueberry cake donut and an entire croissant with 2 little packets of butter. And I didn’t care.

By 3 pm, I realized that Aunt Flo was swooping in for a visit (7 days early) and that started to explain my total lust for CRAP!

So, I have had my splurge. Now, I have 4 full days to correct it. And they are going to be 4 full days of AF too. Yikes.

Tonight, I have a dinner for some bar association continuing education thing. The best option seemed to be the prime rib (other options were stuffed sole and chicken parm). So, let’s see how I do. I’ve only had 3 points so far today and I’m trying to figure out what to do for lunch.

What else??

Oh, yeah. Here’s a big thing!

I went on the treadmill this morning!! WAHOO!!

So, it wasn’t a full 30 minute workout, but I got up early (after hitting snooze 4-5 times) and got on the treadmill. It’s damn hard to do that. Sheesh. But I have to do it in the morning. I have to. I can’t believe I’ve been talking about running for so many weeks and on Day 23 of 53, I finally get something moving.

ugh.

I lost 1.4 lbs. That’s 4 lbs in 2 weeks. I was hoping for 3 lbs per week.

I know I should be happy, but I think I was probably down 3.4 going into the weekend, then I blew it in high style.

My weekend was filled with outside parties and hot dogs and hamburgers a plenty. And I was not prepared by bringing my own veggie burger or turkey sausage, so I let my willpower take a break.

Tonight. Dammit. Tonight I get on the treadmill.

A friend said something to me today as he is trying to lose weight. He said “if I have to bust my ass for 8 weeks to be at a place where I will be comfortable all summer, then dammit, I am going to do it.”

We shouldn’t have to totally bust our asses, weight watchers isn’t that much work, but dammit he’s right.

I only have 33 days left. ugh.

Another okay food day.

It’s been tough at work because we’ve had so much going on that I usually seek comfort in food. Plus, I work on the 2nd floor of a 4 story building. There are probably 100 people in this building. And they all use the microwave and kitchen area that is 50 ft from my office. I get every food scent and hear conversations about how good something looks. Plus, this food area is the “drop off” for all extra food that makes its way into the building.

For instance, right now, there is a busload of stuffed breads sitting in there from last night’s partners’ meeting. Ugh.

Unfortunately, my reliance on diet dr. pepper may be growing a little, but baby steps.

Food:

Breakfast: coffee, cereal with skim, banana – 5 points

Let me stop here to talk about this cereal. I was really hungry when I got to work and stopped in the little café to find something healthy. I grabbed a cereal to go bowl of Special K with strawberries and a skim milk. When I got to my desk and read the nutritional info, it was 5 or 6 points before the milk. WTF?!!? I didn’t need special K that much. I would rather have 5 points in form of a Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwich (those new “lite” ones).

Lunch: salad, leftover broccoli and turkey kielbasa (7 points)

PB Bar = 2 points

Dinner = chicken, peas, small amount of rice = 10 points.

Dessert = WW mint chocolate chip ice cream ½ cup = 1 point.

I really only need ½ a cup of those ice creams. It’s a perfect size!

I probably went a point over today but I feel better not having a 20 point over day! LOL!!