Day 28? I think April 29, 2008

Monday was one of those days that you wish you stayed in bed.

I was hit so hard by AF, I felt so terrible, sick, bloated, tired, achy, etc. that I actually left work over an hour early to go home and get in my sweats. I’ve never done that. Ever.

But I did go to my weigh in.

I know I had a bad week but FOR CHRIST’S SAKE I gained 3 lbs. ugh. I know it’s the AF weight. But still.

The problem with where I am right now is this….this is the point where I feel a depression coming on. I haven’t lost much because I haven’t been a WW super star. I’m frustrated with work and I am in a big rut money-wise. Plus, I’m getting depressed that we are not selling our condo. This all is making me feel like a big fat loser and I want nothing else but to curl up, sit on the couch and get fatter.

Last night, after the WW meeting, I ate 2 helpings of meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Plus, I had a big piece of crumb cake for dinner. Fuck WW.

I know. I know. Not the right attitude.

This morning. I wrote all of that crap down. Maybe 22 points for dinner alone?!!? I don’t know.

I’ve been up at the crack of dawn and in bed late so I haven’t got up to hit the treadmill since Friday. Work and AF are making me tired – even feeling flu-like. But it hasn’t curbed my eating.

I’m not giving up hope. Don’t worry. I have 25 days left until Memorial Day weekend and I can do this! (why does my math not seem to be adding up?!?!)

And then I have 28 more days after that before the big golf tournament that we see all the lesbians at! I need to be skinnier by then, definitely!

Day 24 April 25, 2008

My hope was to be down 10 lbs by Day 26.

Cough. Cough.

It’s not happenin’.

Last night (the seminar) was okay. It involved a long, drawn out discussion. Attorneys like to hear themselves talk (I’m one of them!) and with 100 lawyers in a room discussing a hot topic, it went on forever. So, I ate bread and butter after I was done with my dinner. Bad, bad Holly.

But, alas….

I got back on the treadmill this morning. It was only 20 minutes of walking, but I got up at 6 am (after going to bed at 11:30 pm) and did it!

Tomorrow, I will try the running/walking part again. I was hoping to get ahead a little on the running program and jump to Week 3 but I think I’m really, really much more out of shape than I even could admit to myself.

Another thing.

Tracking works.

We all (everyone who’s done WW) know that when you are diligent about tracking, you lose weight. Well, I have not tracked this week. And AF is really rearing her ugly head and will for 4 more days. Ugh.

My Monday weigh-in will not be pretty but I’m still not giving up on losing weight this week. Dammit.

Day 20 something (Day 23) April 24, 2008

What the hell day is it?

Okay, it’s annoying as hell to write about the day before, the day after it’s happened. Sigh.

I wanted to thank everyone again for their comments. It’s making me feel like I’m not alone. And that I do have to answer to someone other than myself! When you are only answering for yourself, it’s easy to give yourself a break or two or twenty.

I have a total diet meltdown yesterday. I was like one of those bears trolling a campground for an open trailer with food in it. It was administrative pro’s day and there was a lot of bad food hanging around.

By 1 pm, my uncontrollable self had ingested one whole wheat bagel with jelly, a blueberry cake donut and an entire croissant with 2 little packets of butter. And I didn’t care.

By 3 pm, I realized that Aunt Flo was swooping in for a visit (7 days early) and that started to explain my total lust for CRAP!

So, I have had my splurge. Now, I have 4 full days to correct it. And they are going to be 4 full days of AF too. Yikes.

Tonight, I have a dinner for some bar association continuing education thing. The best option seemed to be the prime rib (other options were stuffed sole and chicken parm). So, let’s see how I do. I’ve only had 3 points so far today and I’m trying to figure out what to do for lunch.

What else??

Oh, yeah. Here’s a big thing!

I went on the treadmill this morning!! WAHOO!!

So, it wasn’t a full 30 minute workout, but I got up early (after hitting snooze 4-5 times) and got on the treadmill. It’s damn hard to do that. Sheesh. But I have to do it in the morning. I have to. I can’t believe I’ve been talking about running for so many weeks and on Day 23 of 53, I finally get something moving.

Day 17, 18 and 19 of 53 April 21, 2008

ugh.

I lost 1.4 lbs. That’s 4 lbs in 2 weeks. I was hoping for 3 lbs per week.

I know I should be happy, but I think I was probably down 3.4 going into the weekend, then I blew it in high style.

My weekend was filled with outside parties and hot dogs and hamburgers a plenty. And I was not prepared by bringing my own veggie burger or turkey sausage, so I let my willpower take a break.

Tonight. Dammit. Tonight I get on the treadmill.

A friend said something to me today as he is trying to lose weight. He said “if I have to bust my ass for 8 weeks to be at a place where I will be comfortable all summer, then dammit, I am going to do it.”

We shouldn’t have to totally bust our asses, weight watchers isn’t that much work, but dammit he’s right.

I only have 33 days left. ugh.

Day 16 of 53 April 18, 2008

Another okay food day.

It’s been tough at work because we’ve had so much going on that I usually seek comfort in food. Plus, I work on the 2nd floor of a 4 story building. There are probably 100 people in this building. And they all use the microwave and kitchen area that is 50 ft from my office. I get every food scent and hear conversations about how good something looks. Plus, this food area is the “drop off” for all extra food that makes its way into the building.

For instance, right now, there is a busload of stuffed breads sitting in there from last night’s partners’ meeting. Ugh.

Unfortunately, my reliance on diet dr. pepper may be growing a little, but baby steps.

Food:

Breakfast: coffee, cereal with skim, banana – 5 points

Let me stop here to talk about this cereal. I was really hungry when I got to work and stopped in the little café to find something healthy. I grabbed a cereal to go bowl of Special K with strawberries and a skim milk. When I got to my desk and read the nutritional info, it was 5 or 6 points before the milk. WTF?!!? I didn’t need special K that much. I would rather have 5 points in form of a Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwich (those new “lite” ones).

Lunch: salad, leftover broccoli and turkey kielbasa (7 points)

PB Bar = 2 points

Dinner = chicken, peas, small amount of rice = 10 points.

Dessert = WW mint chocolate chip ice cream ½ cup = 1 point.

I really only need ½ a cup of those ice creams. It’s a perfect size!

I probably went a point over today but I feel better not having a 20 point over day! LOL!!

Day 15 of 53 April 17, 2008

Goal: I realize today is Day 15. I want to set a bet with myself that I can be down 10 lbs by Day 26 (the halfway point). Maybe I’m nuts. Maybe I need to start RUNNING!

Food:

Breakfast: Thomas’ fat free whole wheat English muffin with jam, coffee with skim and splenda = 3 points

Snack: grapefruit and 100 calorie pack Hostess blueberry muffins = 2 points

Lunch: WW bread with turkey, carrots, applesauce = 5 points

Snack: PB Bliss bar = 1 point

Dinner:

This is where it gets tricky. And this is where the extra weekly points come in.

Our visitor from Norway really wanted to go to Outba*ck before she left to go back home. She’s leaving Friday, so we were down to the wire.

I went online and googled “outb*ck and WW points” then printed out the list I found. I think I decided before we even got there that I would do a shrimp and veggie griller.

After perusing the menu, I decided on the Salmon with fresh veggies and got a salad with oil and vinegar. How bad can that be, right?!?!

Well, I did sneak a few bites of the appetizers that were on the table. Someone ordered cheese fries with bacon and a Blo*min’ Onion. (BTW – An entire BO with no sauce is around 56 points). Based on that number, I’m going to guess that my little bites here and there might have been close to 15 points. Damn.

And I ate the entire salmon and the salad and my veggies. I am sure that both the salmon and the veggies were COVERED in butter, so I think I have to add 6 points to that meal above and beyond the estimated points. The websites I saw didn’t have the points for what I ordered (why didn’t I stick to the griller?!?!)

So, I’m guessing my meal was probably 15 points, including the salad. Plus the “extras” I had for appetizers, that’s another 15 points.

30 points at dinner alone. For the love of all things, I can only have 24 points per day.

I had 13 points left for the day before I walked into Outba*ck. Damn them. Let’s figure I went 17 points over my daily allotment and maybe that’s even low.

At least I know it was a one time thing this week and I will be good the remainder of the week. It was good food and you have to live a little, right!?!?!
Finds:
I love those Cryst*l light “on the go” iced tea mixes to throw into a bottle of water. I have very low tolerance for sweet stuff, so I usually only put a third of the powder into my water bottle. But I am now ADDICTED to the Peach Tea flavor. It makes drinking water very easy and I think it’s really refreshing.

Want to try:
Along the same lines, I used to love putting Real Lem*n powder into my water for a fresher taste. I saw on hungry-girl.com (my new bible) that there is now Real Lime. OMG! I need to find that. I love love love anything that is lime (especially when it’s in a corona)

Day 14 of 53 April 16, 2008

Another day come and gone with no exercise. I will continue to blame my long hours and our houseguests, but come Saturday when our guests are gone, my excuses will be falling away.

I had a pretty good food day.

Breakfast: coffee and banana (2 points)
Snack: orange
Lunch: salad with lots of veggies but some full fat dressing (5 points)
Snack: carrots and PB Bliss bar (1 point)
Dinner: small burger, lean meat grilled, no cheese on WW bread (5 points?), some turkey kielbasa (7 points)
Steamed broccoli

Not too bad. Around 20-21 points, give or take a few.

I felt good when I got on the scale. My fresh out of the shower weigh in was a sight I hadn’t seen in awhile.

Is anyone else participating in the Spring Challenge? Anyone else on track with their own challenge or weight loss goals??

Day 13 of 53 April 15, 2008

Food:

I am allowed 24 points and I am usually around 26 per day, no matter what I do. I know you need to eat all of your points, but on Day 13, I ate only 18 points and I felt pretty good. The only thing is that I didn’t really eat breakfast and I need to work on having a halfway decent breakfast.

Morning: Coffee (1) and Grapefruit (1)

Lunch: Chix salad on WW bread (4), baby carrots (0), apple (1)

Beverages: 2 Diet Dr. Peppers and lots of water w/ Cryst*l light iced tea

Snack: WW Peanut Butter Bliss Bar (1), Banana (1)

Dinner: WW tv dinner enchiladas with fat free sour cream (6), salad with vinaigrette (2) and ½ a WW mint chocolate chip ice cream cup (1)

I’m doing this off memory, but I don’t think I missed anything.

Exercise:

I got home late from work and we had company again so I missed out on the treadmill. I have to do it tonight. I am very frustrated that I can’t seem to make a workout schedule fit into my life, but I am coming to the realization that I will just need to get up early (5:30 or so).

Weight:

As I reported yesterday, I am down 2.2 lbs. This brings me to 185 even. I am less on my home scale, but we’re sticking with the WW official weight.

Spring Challenge weight loss: 2.2 lbs

Weight lost overall (since May 06): 20.6 lbs

Amount left until First Goal achieved: 17.8 lbs

The warm weather is starting to hit me. I want to be in shorts without being completely mortified. My son is 14 months old and being outside is like the greatest treat on the planet. I MUST play outside with him without a second thought. I can’t wait to get into a cute pair of shorts without standing in front of the bathroom mirror going “ugh. Look at that fat ass.”

Day 10, 11 and 12 April 14, 2008

It was a busy weekend. And I’ve just flown right into the beginning of a busy work week.

Can’t write too much right now, but I need to update.

My official weight will be my WW weigh-ins on Mondays.

As far as my “new” week 1 went, I lost 2.2 lbs this week.

Not as good of a start as I had hoped, but it is a LOSS, so I can’t complain. Plus, I didn’t really deserve to lose any more of that this past week.

This upcoming week, I will deserve to lose every pound I lose as well.

Day 9 of 53 April 11, 2008

Lesson of the day: carefully read the nutritional info on the package. For example, the WW quesadillas have 4 points on the box. There are 2 (half) quesadillas in the box. I heat up both for lunch and eat both – because only 1 was definitely not enough food. After lunch, I reread the box. 4 points is for 1. I had 8 points for lunch. Dammit.

Food:

Breakfast: fruit (pineapple, peaches, grapefruit, oranges and honeydew) with full-fat cottage cheese (I had no other choice)

Snack: banana and Crys*l Light iced tea

Lunch: 8 point quesadilla (BTW – I can make a much better and bigger 4 point quesadilla at home) and a Diet Dr. Pepper

Snack: WW Peanut Butter Bliss bar (I’m still totally loving these – and Hungry-girl just did a write up on them)

Dinner: we had leftover pulled pork, which is terrible points-wise. But I just did a little bit of it (less than a cup) and I threw it on a WW English muffin. This was followed up with a salad (just lettuce and nuts) with balsalmic.

Exercise: none again. I really suck. The time thing is very tough. I have been working long hours the past 2 weeks (leaving the house at 7:30 am and getting home around 7:30 pm) Every night this week, we’ve had company at our house around dinner. Plus, I haven’t been going to sleep until after 11 pm. The only way I will be able to get on the treadmill is to get up before 6 am. Ugh.

Weight:

Again, I am still not declaring official weight until my Monday WW meetings. However, based on my “just out of the shower totally naked weigh-in” this morning, compared to my “just out of the shower totally naked weigh-in” on Day 1, I am down 4.8 lbs.